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📆 Issue 101 | ⏱️ Read time: 3 min

Releasing the Past: Embracing the Unknown You

Have you ever gone through the process of releasing your past?

I recently went through this process too and let me tell you it’s grounding, humbling, relieving… and a bit scary.

I had long moved on from some people in my past, so I didn’t realize how much real estate they still occupied in my heart, mind, and soul.

Upon closer inspection, I realized it wasn’t just people and dreams from the past I had to let go of, but the VERSION OF ME who was in love with those people and pursuing those dreams.

This version of me was crazy in many ways, but she was also incredible in many ways. She caused a lot of chaos, but she also believed in the impossible.

With this past version of me… it was the best of times and the worst of times, total bliss and total destruction. And I was shocked to discover that I was even more attached to HER than the people I was being called to release.

We fall in love with WHO WE BECOME around certain people in addition to falling in love with people themselves.

Every person on Earth is like a lock-in key, unblocking different aspects of our personality, our truth, and our experience of this world.

I realized in my release of these people, I was stepping into a new version of myself. I was stepping into someone I had never met before, someone who was not defined by these past dynamics, dreams, and worldviews.

I realized that so much of my holding onto past relationships was rooted in my fear of stepping into a new version of myself.

I realized in the wake of grief I stood naked, alone… but unafraid.

I cannot hold onto this past version of me any longer.

She has been dead SO LONG.

There were aspects of her I loved, aspects of her I hated, and she was a force to be reckoned with. But she can’t come with me where I’m going.

My goals are different- for better and for worse. And to achieve them, I’ll need to become someone completely new. I’ll need to release everything I thought I knew about operating in this world. I’ll need to let every single moment be a discovery of the woman I am becoming.

Cheers to the past and good riddance!

We are always on to brighter and better… because we DECIDE it is so!

Keep inspiring,

Nicole