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📆 Daily Issue 48 | ⏱️ Read time: 2 min

Lip Filler: A Tale of Beauty, Fear, and Empowerment

I got lip filler.

In my never-ending search to be more beautiful, I caved and got lip filler.

And I’m torn.

In some moments, I feel gorgeous. In other moments, I feel like some type of gross hybrid duck-clown.

So why did I do it?

I’ve been asking myself that question a lot the past 24 hours.

I did it because I have wanted to do it for years. For YEARS it's been in the back of my mind as something that could balance out my face and make me feel more attractive.

But there were always so many fears…

What will my parents think?

What will everyone think when I have the not-so-subtle “lip filler look”?

What will I think of myself when I look in the mirror?

Fear of what might go wrong consumed me. So I let the desire sit on the backburner.

But yesterday I was feeling alive, or maybe I was in the mood to self-sabotage, sometimes it's hard to tell.

I felt empowered and I got a case of the “F its”.

I called the beauty treatment center, booked an appointment for the same day, and went for it.

I’ve been feeling like a new woman lately, and I wanted to do something to mark this newness.

I wanted a physical change deeper than just dying my hair.

A day later, as I’m sitting back and reflecting. I’m glad I did it. I’m glad I overcame my fears and just pulled the trigger.

It didn’t make me magically more beautiful.

It didn’t solve any of my problems.

And it didn’t make me feel more feminine.

I’m the same me, with plastic in my lips.

BUT, I will say, the feeling of empowerment and the thrill of taking a risk stuck with me.

I am no longer a woman suppressing her desires. And I am no longer a woman letting other people’s opinions of her rule her life.

And that’s got to count for something.

If you’re out there wondering if you should or shouldn’t do something that’s been on the back burner for a long time. (Yes, THAT thing that just popped into your head), maybe give it a try.

Life is so short. And our desires, the deep and true ones AND the shallow and silly ones, are meant to be acted on.

It may not lead where you think it will lead, but sometimes the only way to find out is to try.

Keep inspiring,

Nicole