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📆 Daily Issue 53 | ⏱️ Read time: 2 min

Escaping the Couch: Confronting the Fear of Wasting Life

I am terrified of wasting my life.

Over the past couple of years, I’ve spent way too much time watching TV. I’ve been binge-watching TV shows, Youtube channels, and TikToks to my heart’s content.

I never watched much TV before that, so I surrendered to letting myself plow down a new pleasure-led life path.

“Life is short… why not indulge?”

Indulge in the television watching,

Indulge in the food that makes you feel like crap,

Indulge in the lifestyle you’ve spent your entire life judging.

Last night I was sitting on the couch, watching TV and eating every carb in sight, and I thought to myself,

“I’m MISSING my life.”

I had lost the courage to make choices that would create an exciting life, so I watched exciting lives on TV.

It was pathetic. And it was everything I stood against.

“I’m going to die on this couch… how did I get here?” I thought to myself.

I let that fear take over and completely consume me…

The fear of getting to the end of my life and realizing I’d never lived it,

The fear of drowning myself in regret,

The fear of letting my laziness and complacency run the show.

Something rose up inside me.

I CANNOT let that happen. I CANNOT be that person. I CANNOT let my losses define my life trajectory.

Today is a new day and I am recommitting to a life path full of hard choices, risks, and putting in the effort.

I’m not ready to resign just yet.

I refuse to be a non-player character.

I refuse to give up.

And I refuse to let go of the truest, most beautiful life I can imagine for myself.

Life is short. And I’m going to take advantage of every second.

Keep inspiring,

Nicole